It has been a long time since I last blog.

Recently dunno what happen to so many couples.
A lot of couples around me in camp broke up.
1 of them also going to get a divorce.

What the world is going on?

I am also the same.
Broke up with my wonderful gf last year.
Make a wrong move. (make her sad)
And now suffer with regrets.

All of them who broke up seems fine.
I tell them about my story.
They tell me to find a new gf.
They can take it lightly.
But I cant.


Last year valentines' day.
I celebrated with her.
Bought her flower for the first time.
Went out to eat dinner.
Go changi airport watch aeroplanes.
Take a lot of photos.
This year I am all alone.


Last year CNY.
Have a stupid request for her.
Tell her wear nice a bit.
First time saw her carry handbag.
This year I duty in camp.


I still remember those days that I spend with her when she was in the hospital.
Even though she was sick and fragile.
She never forget my birthday.
First time my birthday celebrated in hospital.
Got a fork and spoon and knife for me.


From the day I enlisted.
All the way until we broke up.
I still remember all the things we do together.
For example, how shy when are together.
How shy she is.
Our First hold hands.
Our First kiss (I was cheeky that time)
Our First hug.

All these things I remember carefully.

But now all these can only be just memories.
Before I pass out.
My life as a trainee was simple.
Just listen to what my instructor say.
I do.


When there are any problems.
I just need to highlight to my instructor.
Get advice from them.

But life now as a commander.
My men also broke up with their gf.
Cry and tell me.
I have to act tough and console them now.
All these happen now.
Who do I look for to console?


Reasons why couple break up during army life.
1) Girl found new BF.
2) Guy become GAY! (Not truth for me)
3) Cannot compromise each other.

My life now is like having 2 different life.
When I am a Civilian, I have freedom.
I do what I want.


When I am wearing green, I have responsibility.
The life of my men depend on me.
The regimentation in camp also.
Discipline is a MUST!
It is like a prison just that you can come out on weekends.


Suffering in Taiwan is also another thing.
Enduring the cold weather.
Almost dying.
Day and Night thinking about my gf.


Last time, I am motivated when I am in camp.
Now, I am not.
Last time weekend come out can meet gf.
Now alone.


I know whatever I say now will not change anything.
The feeling will not come back now.
But seeing you so much happier now.
I just have to say, "OK"

"As Long You Are Fine, Im Fine"

Happy CNY and Valentines' Day in Advance.
=)